This journey has been long, like the roads on which i meander and pace back and forth. I have been so many places that spoke of you, where your grandeaur, beauty and wisdom aboud. I am like a ship without a rudder, a boat without a sail, i bounce around to and fro floating on the vast seas. A ship without a port. Or like a bird that does not ride the current, but is tossed around by the prevailing winds. Many paths i have, some etched so deep, but it seems no place to land. I have spurted out in so many directions, and along paths that do not meet, bold leaps i take and a bounce around from place to place to place. The centre is gone, both inside and out, where i can stop to bring it all in.
To join the experiences and learnings that brought me here, and integrate the lessons learned. Bring together the vast diversity that makes me who i am. Take all the voices and the noise that compete in a disorderly cacaphony, bring them together into a choir and grand symphony. No longer attempt to silence some placing ducktape over their mouths or by barring them behind a door. The sounds may be muffled and muted, as others take the stage, but when voices are silenced, they often come back louder and enraged. And those that I valued may have given up when their song is no longer engaged. But to accept all the parts, the players i have, and train them to sing well. Bring them together in harmony, each vibration adding to the whole, at times some will play louder, take center stage, but orchestra plays. But can i become a conductor at this stage?
