Sept 6, 2010
Today i start another journey around the sun, another year of my life, what will it bring forth? what do i call forth? i will no longer fear my hearts call, i no longer fear my hearts call, my soul’s yearning, my purpose on this planet we call earth. i embrace my purpose, my destiny in life. i no longer hide away and shirk back inside myself. i allow the light to shine on through. i thank god and creation and honour the spirit and soul in all. i engage with life and each moment, no longer trying to deny it when it becomes uncomfortable. i may not be perfect, i know i am not, and accept that is the human condition. and through the imperfection and grace of god i may shine, i do shine, i will shine, for a light is not to be hidden away but is to glow for all, and i seek to glow and fulfill gods will.
i listen, i do not argue, i train my ears to focus on the word of god, the angels song, the call of my soul and the beating of my heart. I train my eyes to see the spark of light in all, that divine energy of creation, the god within, and to help call it forth. I also train my eyes and ears and gut to discern, to discern what is really there – to reach for the light and not the darkness, to shine a light upon the dark, nor to smother the light with the dark (but also not to blind myself to anything) and i learn to tell the difference, especially when all is obscured in shades of grey. I learn to speak angel’s words and think thoughts of god – to feed the cosmic consciousness that calls us forth, and not to dampen it with negativity, doubt, worry and fear. But i also learn to speak the truth and seek the truth, even when i or others might not want to hear – to not hide my head in the sand nor strangle myself with silenced vocal cords, for i learn to discern. I learn to tell the difference from that which comes from within or from above and belongs to me, and that which belongs to others.
I learn to feel, to feel it all – the happiness and joys and sorrows and pains as well. i do not shove harmful or painful thoughts down or deny that they are there, but i do not let them take hold and overpower what is true. I learn to feel hope, joy and love, and i learn to love all the belongs to god, and that includes myself. I learn to give and to receive as well, aware of what comes in and what goes out.
I seek to spread the light and to accept it as well, for energy cannot be blocked. i learn to keep it flowing, and to flow myself, to let the divine flow through and within. I learn to be open, but also to discern, to have a center within myself – to feel the center that is there, and to listen, see, feel, trust in it. I learn to trust, to trust my intuition and knowings, to trust in life, to trust in god. i learn to love and i remember to smile. I take care of myself. i do not search madly but i seek and i ask and i put myself forth. i learn to put myself forth. i ask – i ask god to guide me – and i listen, watch and feel for an answer. I live lightly upon the land and i honour creation.
