I have gone by the name alicewandersland
in this online world
off and on for some time
for the past 7 years
at times i let it go and then it reclaims me
and i am off on another journey
or at times i wish to deny it and throw it away
have i created it or has it created me
i do not know
the name alice was given
but the latter i chose
based on my journeys and the famous book
my twist on the title that was so familiar
i have the urge to explore
but also drift endlessly
often not present where i am
wandering, observing
the outside looking on
not participating in building what is there
and i now wish to join the dance of life
i read a book, a marlo morgan book
but one where in the culture you change your name throughout life
relates to what you do or where you stand
a name that is chosen carefully,
one that may be changed again
once it no longer fits,
once another calls more strongly
of the current one constrains.
i think it is time that i thought of another name
(or do i accept that this is my role in this incantation here on earth)
i struggle with the two
but there must be a third way
one that fits.
